Depression and drama are linked. Recently, I experienced heat exhaustion. Having embarked on an exercise program, I started by walking one and half miles each day in scorching heat. This was such a bad idea. I wound up throwing up and dizzy for about two weeks. Fortunately, a dozen bottles of pedialyte later, I’m now well again. In the process, I also develped several infections because I had dangerously deflated my immune system. I could have died from this if it would have progressed to a heat stroke.
What a sobering thought!
What does drama have to do with depression? Allow me to explain.
Once I became well, I did some serious reflection. Raised in an alcoholic home, I witnessed and expected a drama du jour. Over the years, I’ve had a gun pointed at me; I was miraculously saved from a possible assault: I heard screaming, ranting, and raving on a daily basis. And I witnessed family tragedies more often than I want to repeat. Drama was a constant reality. I learned to thrive on an adrenaline rush and didn’t feel alive if something tremendously thrill producing wasn’t going on in my life.
In subsequent years, almost every serious relationship had two crisis oriented individuals involved. I seemed to have attracted more than my share of weirdos.
In the absence of tragedy, I then learned to hate routine and would set about the business of creating stress.
During my anorexic period, death nearly came to my ninety five pound tall frame; Heat exhaustion brought extreme illness, and
careless money management has precipitated a lot of anxiety.
A few weeks ago, my counselor asked me why I was persisting in pursuing a go nowhere family relationship. She brought up the drama issue and suggested I stay clear of this person if I wanted a normal life. Since then I’ve learned to enjoy routine and boredom.
It’s been so freeing. Upon reflection, I now know the heat exhaustion episode was a dangerous life threatening return to the excitement of a thrill. Who wants that? It pays to sit back and enjoy a totally routine, normal life.
Dear readers, feel free to share the ways you have stopped to smell the flowers and steered clear of drama.
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